Friday, June 30, 2017

July & Day 198 CJSM

 
July
 
Sunshine, ice cream, swimming, watermelon heaven
Summer-time good things sent ole Lucky No. seven
 
Freedom half over and we’ve hardly just begun
“California Girls!’ The Beach Boys harmony sung
 
School-“daze” an on-purpose forgotten nightmare
Summer-love in mind with coquette maiden fair
 
Family vacation to the mountains with pleasure
Add blue ocean-trip, a white sand beach treasure
 
Lawns to manicure, tasty bar-b-que, time bidin’
Hot day bakin’, eve partyin’, convertible ridin’
 
Independence celebrate into summer cool night
Bombs bursting in air, rockets rocking in flight
 
Educate “city”-girl on snipe-hunt under full moon
Promise! Kiss ’er again under ’morrow’s sun noon
 
Twilight to the drive-in, park in far yonder last row
Who cares the movie? Sparkin’ car-wonder fast show
 
Afternoon thunderstorm! A display on remote ole Fox Lake
Clubhouse cozy-warm fire affords romance-liberty dare take
 
Summer-Lovin’ attune with Mother Nature game
No matter the season, devotion-emotion still same
 
And, recall infinity space of eternal youth expectation
Then, chance experience liberty challenge emancipation
 
Just hint adventure scant sign upon vacant trace
Wild variance unencumbered exacerbate pace
 
Oh! From then to now here on approach to where---Unafraid!
Proclaim victor! Gain prize earned by generous dues full-paid
 
So! Descend hellion August dog-days unambiguous
Prepared ready to rock ’n roll with evil tempestuous
 
 
Plus:
 
 
 
Day 198 
 
 
Waking up at dawn to take cattle and pigs to
market followed by breakfast at the “Greasy Spoon”
 
 
Our “sensitive” girls hold a soft spot in their tender-hearts for animals: Beth sure enough loves our four-legged “friends” as does our Becky-girl---she also identifies with them in some kind of special manner-of-understanding that not all of us are privy to.  Hmm!?
 We saw to it that our girls always had “money” on-hand; Lady Candice is quite generous by nature and I seldom had two nickels to rub together as a kid (sometimes, I find myself in that boat today!). Christian-generosity, indeed, begins at home. Often I would get my bonus-checks cashed and come home with both hands behind my back asking our progeny, “Which hand?”
 An equal amount of money was held out-of-sight and as the girls made a left/right decision, I would hold out the money to each of them, usually hundred dollar bill, sometimes, several. When they went shopping or out with friends to a movie or dance, they always had ample cash, aside from the “trick”-hand chuncks they generally deposited in their savings accounts. It makes a person feel somewhat “whole” to have a pocket full of cash. I reckon so!
 So, one fine day we see this ad in the local paper: 7-feeder calves for sale. And, a phone number. I offered a “partnership”-deal to my mega-rich personal friends (Beth & Becky) who probably had more money on-hand than I did, to buy the cattle and they would each choose one to claim for their own and get “paid” the amount it brought at market, feed them, take them to market and sell them and split the profits. I was to provide all the hay and grain; a good deal for them. I would put up all the investment capital; they would help tend the animals and feed and water the brutes. Deal---Struck!
 We call the guy, make an appointment to see the stock, hook up our stock trailer to the ole 4 X 4 and head out like the Big-cattle barons we intended to be. All the way to the man’s farm, I am lecturing the girls, Beth, 14, Becky, 7, not to name these critters, no matter how cute they might be (the kids made pets out of everything on the farm and then didn’t want to ever sell any of them). Silently, they listened to the “old man’s” sermon knowing full well his soft heart would one day soon relent and let them keep the critters. They objected not a single word. Hmm!?
 Well, we finally get to the farm and the old man met us in the parking area. A jovial sort with an unending smile and devilment sparkle in his bright blue eyes; he shows us over to the barn where the calves are being detained for our inspection. Each one---cute as a button.
 We haggle a bit over the total package-price, shake on the deal, write the man a hefty check, load-up our prizes and get in the truck to head home---so…I thought!
 We waved good-bye to our “Mr. Green Jeans” and before I get twenty feet, I hear the old man yelling and looking in the rear view mirror, I see him hobbling after us waving a white sheet of paper. I stop and roll down the side window wondering what on earth could have gone wrong.
 Breathless, he comes up to my door and hands me an IBM punch card which is the way business-people used to give commands to computers; P-C had not been invented, yet.
 Smiling, Mr. Farmer-man, my “friend” hands me the punch card saying, “Here is a list of the birthdates and names of each of the calves!” What!? Are you kidding me? Conspiracy!
 The kids held to the names and we fed and fattened our “investment” and did “sell” them for a tidy profit about nine months later; the kids made pets out of them---me, too…temporarily.
 To this day, Beth contends she got short changed as Becky got more money for her “Buster” than Beth got for her project. Buster did outweigh the other cattle and did bring more cash at the sale; Becky dismisses the sisterly-lament with a shrug and an explanation that she spent a lot of time with Buster, talking to him while he ate, watering him and being his friend and saying that he grew bigger because of her matronly attentions toward him. Hmm! It does make sense.
 On the other hand, I feel I should have divided the money equally---but…C’est la vie!
 Anyway, I believe in a universal-justice whereby everything evens out in the end.
 If I were to count numbers of cars bequeathed---well…let’s not go there! Okay!?
 
Ah! Cookie Jar Sweet “Mine is bigger than yours” Memories!

 
 
 
 


Door Gunner & Day197 CJSM

Door Gunner
 
 
Cacophonous roar of whirring rotor blades over my head
Drowned out by my fire-breathing thunderous gun of dread
 
Red clay broiling-earth explodes in fifty-caliber-death onslaught
How many hearts and minds have young soldiers’ demise bought?
 
All innocent lives lost could never be counted
Fat-cats got richer as the blood dollars mounted
 
Myriad freedom-flights over the hot red brick oven
Our armored machines rained hellfire from above ’em
 
Crimson mud splatters from a gunner’s bullets flying
Young lives wasted while pernicious-politicos kept lying
 
Away from all war, at home I’d much rather be
Any duty performed, prolongs this hated insanity
 
My heart tears asunder as black body bags pile near
A nobody claims fame from innocent blood spilled here
 
When the game is called by politicians most rotten
The bravest of the courageous are quickly forgotten
 
They donned the uniform and didn’t complain
A hero unnoticed lives in his spirit-soul’s pain
 
Salve national guilt with a cold granite black wall
Names etched in blood recalls “Honor” stands tall
 
 
Plus:
 
 
 
Day 197
 
 
Everywhere we go in Columbia, someone is always calling out,
“Hi! Mrs. Schuler!” Candy’s teaching career has followed her.
 
 
Seems that wherever we go, a restaurant, a shopping mall, any public venue, someone will come up to my Lady Candice Leah with a smiling salutation, a warm hug and a brief reunion.
 At such interludes, I simply slink away off into some remote corner and wait for the meeting to end. When I come back, I ask with curiosity, already guessing the answer, “Who was that?”
 With a final wistful glance in the direction of the fleeting delightfully- acceptable interruption, my Lady will smile, lamentingly, and reply, “Oh! That was ‘so ’so from 6th grade.”
Quite an impression Candy makes on people; she sure enough made a “positive” one on me!
 Everybody loves my Candy-girl! A most pleasing “Amen!” to that sentiment! It continues!
 
Thank You! Lord! For Your blessing!
 
Ah! Cookie Jar Sweet “Hello! Miss Candy” Memories!


Wednesday, June 28, 2017

4th of July & Day 196 CJSM

 
My Soldier-Love! (a soldier’s song-sad)
In the abyss of white diamond midnight-light
This tender-heart love-soars my spirit-bright
Come eternal dawns your face lives in sight
Together again one day soon my dream-delight
 
Pink-subtle hint of dawn colored eastern sky;
Shortly: Red! White! Blue!-hues blend-swirl;
Lovers awake to coolness-aspen whisper-wind;
Pine-y woods at tree line kisses bright sun-day.
 
Gazing into brown-crystal pools he takes her hand;
A gentle kiss sweet-love the pair does savor-share;
Breakfast on the open fire with sugar for tart-tea;
Gather camp, then challenge trail adventure-search.
 
Five miles to high-noon cold lunch respite-time;
Energy bars and trail mix snack onto relax-recline;
Absently she strums guitar as sun warms pretty face;
Her beau attentive gazes soft enamored sacred-tender.
 
 In an abyss of white high noon sun-light
This tender-heart love-soars my spirit-bright
Come eternal dawns your face lives in sight
Together again one day soon my dream-delight
 
Thy beauty-face with angel-song soothes my heart;
“I love you more than all of this!” Arms spread wide;
She smiled and whisper-sang her quatrain-love verse;
A stinging tear escaped her eye though she lamented it.
 
Soft, his fingertips erased the mar to taste the salt;
“I will return so soon once this tour is final-done”;
A lower lip quivered-slight belied resolve-intended;
Her body shuddered as he held her gentle-comfort close.
 
Backpacks upright they headed out, her strength recouped;
Miles ahead upon a shelter-ridge they pitched tidy night-camp;
In flicker-shadows daguerreotype exposed veracity subtle-flashed;
Ebb-flow emotioned-passion undulated cadence universe-grandeur;
Later, hot-liquid stained his handsome face until she succumbed sleep.
 
In the abyss of white diamond midnight-light
This tender-heart love-soars my spirit-bright
Come eternal dawns your face lives in sight
Together again one day soon my dream-delight
Much too soon an evil loading-gate swallowed her love;
Back home she hiked the Great Divide, friend-in-hand;
To trace their steps, easy enough; her tight voice failed;
Desperately alone she fit-full tossed-slept the evil dark;
Morning-bright offered no relief; she somehow arrived home.
 
Eternal first-year slowly eroded a willing-life full-desire;
Friend-guitar gathered evil dust, forgotten on a deserted shelf;
Emotions slowly died save letters defined seeming lost life-love;
Too soon the nightmares assaulted anguished-hope in lost space.
 
For him, the evil “hell” alive with demon-monsters savage-insane;
Felt he could dodge green-tracer rounds leading lethal end-to-life;
Rifle-friend had saved him through time and space, a spirit injured;
Yet, true Love-abounds in hope with helmet-picture safe-secured.
 
In the abyss of red-laser death midnight-fright
This tender-heart love-soars his spirit-bright
Come eternal dawns love’s face lives in sight
Together again one day soon my dream-delight
 
Startled awake in stark-fear---the dream too real to think;
Her soldier-boy visited her home in hidden-shadow face;
A cold-ice hand reached out to vacant touch her pale hand;
Too much to bear she faded dull to beg bright morning sun.
 
They finally came by ten to check as she be an early riser;
Upon the tasseled bed she sat guitar-friend in steady-hand;
While in her absent-sleep the phone had blared somewhere;
Their tortured faces told the tale which she already evil-knew.
 
The flag-draped box Red! White! Blue! So quiet-still it rested;
Precision-cadence uniform-march to attention stand-salute;
Seated-front with a worn guitar the pretty lady strangely stoic;
Crisp-careful folded proud flag solemn presented with Love!
 
Blended-abyss Red! White! Blue! Noon-light
This purple-heart love-soars his spirit-bright
Come eternal dawns your Love!  lives in sight
Together again one day soon my dream-delight
 
In the abyss of white diamond midnight-light
This tender-heart love-soars my spirit-bright
Come eternal dawns your face lives in sight
Together again one day soon my dream-delight
Amen!
 
 
 
Plus:
 
 
 
 
Day 196
 
 
Becky’s “haystack” birthday cakes
 
 
 
Some people just have a knack for utilizing “whatever” might be at hand---make-do!
 A local lady does cake baking and decorating in her home, Miss Jan has created literally thousands of cakes and cookies for her clientle over the years. We enlist her services, regularly.
 Jan bakes most of our birthday cake celebration treats and has for some forty years. Perfect!
 Daughter Becky got “haystack” cakes for several years; I, just today, learned the “secret”.
 A huge mound of cake in a “haystack” shape was decorated with gold-colored icing and iced onto the creation in a linear fashion so as to look like wheat straw piled in a stack in the field.
Pretty cool! But, the “plot” thickens. Today, Lady Candice explained to “simple”-me how Jan managed to get a “haystack” mold for baking the cake. Hmm!---Very…Interesting!
 It seems our quiet little baker gal had a very large “Barbie doll” mold which she employed upon “special” request for adult party occasions to be kept out of sight of children!? When “properly” decorated for a “special” interpretation, the cake held especially delightful “culinary” pleasures; careful cutting of the presentation seemingly offered “something” for every taste!?
 Without being too explicit, let’s just conclude by allowing that our “shy” Miss Jan utilized one side of Miss Barbie’s well-endowed attributes as the mold for a “Haystack”. The reader can make his or her own wisecracks and witticisms about that conclusion. I try not to sin---mostly!
 The “mound” served its intended purpose---very…well! Indeed! I just love---mounds-of-cake! Yum! Yum! “Seconds? Sir?” Why! Yes!  Thank you for so very much! (I love a party!)
 No wonder everybody snickered as I dug right in---to the…cake! Oh! My goodness!
 
Ah! Cookie (and cake) Sweet “Yum! Yum! Memories!

 


Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Day 195 CJSM


Day 195

 

 

Watching “Lonesome Dove”, the movie, on Sunday evenings

 

 

One of the very “best” books I ever read! Bar---none!

 McMurtry breathed life into his memorable characters as the frontier movement conquered the Great Plains of North America and spread to the awesome Rockies as intrepid trappers led the way to national expansion braving wild Indians, wicked weather and myriad perilous trials.

 I made only one mistake with the tomb---I read the book before I watched the movie. Always a mistake, just as it was with The Godfather. The human imagination-spirit builds “movie” sets like no Hollywood technician ever can achieve. “Reality” reigns! Better than any movie---ever!

 “Lonesome Dove” had been out for a time when one of the networks undertook to air it in segments on Sunday nights; I was glued to the T.V. set along with the family. What a show!

 The author, Larry McMurtry, perpetrated the same “evil” writer’s trick on me as did the late novelist, James Michener; each time I came to appreciate, understand, befriend and love a character in their worked---they killed them off…Boom! The myriad means of the demise unimportant; the loss of a new “friend” leaves an emotional hole nearly as real as life-events.

 I have watched the movie several times since that first viewing and enjoyed it each time---immensely! Good “friends” may pass, come and go like white fluffy clouds floating across a cerulean sky shadowing those they touch, but they continue to “live” in your heart---forever!

 If any of those who know me wonder “why?”---here is the reason as to why I loveLife!

Dare allow the curious child you once knew to join  the awesome events of adventure of life!

 

Ah! Cookie Jar Sweet “Life-adventures” Memories!

Monday, June 26, 2017

Day 194 CJSM


 
Day 194
 
 
The smell of Woodland Phlox in the Spring
 
 
I love Mother Nature! Her moods, nuances, tantrums, softness, seasons. Adventure-fun!
 Each of the four-wild sister-seasons own my heart equally; after three months of any one, I am ready and anxious for the next offering. (Secretly, while I love each the same, my very “slight” preference brings them in the following order: Autumn! Winter! Spring! Summer!)
Autumn! Mother Nature in her regal-Royal wardrobe of reds, yellows and orange hues.
Winter! With its solace of a comfort-white blanket and fragrant wood smoke of the stove.
Spring! Offering “fresh” life with Red Ear sunfish spawning and wild Morels calling.
Summer! Thunderstorm tirades with horrendous humidity, picnics ans swimming.
 Each season presents “unique” offerings, each delectable to the senses. And, the events of wild and exciting life-adventures intermingle in spite of the calendar date. Life is Sweet!
 The girls love “Spring phlox” and often brought Nanny a wild bouquet. Becky absolutely adored the wild flowers; she utilized the fragrant spring delicacies decorating the horses and dogs on myriad occasions; whatever she did, the animal-friends were “all-in”. When big sister went to the high school prom, our Rachel decorated her play house and the little wooden bridge I had built over the creek for her to use getting to the combination play house/dove cage.
 The kids both inherited our love of nature and were taught its worthy temptations. The grandchildren came along and they enjoy the “natural” world, also. I am proud and happy in it.
 
Ah! Cookie Jar Sweet “Ambrosia-fragrance” Memories!



 

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Michael! Mon Amie!---Farwell & Day 193 CJSM

 
Adios!
 
Five too-long years since ye departed here,
June 26, 2012---A sad & sorry day-tear
 
I’ve spoken all the tear-filled words
while smiled the precious memories:
For Michael’s-mark upon me---I knew:
Adios! Mon Amie!...I’ll always love you!





Michael James Bradley

(October 9, 1953-June 26, 2012)

(a loving tribute; 6-26-2013)

 

One sunny spring day found me in the office at 2:30 p.m., busy at my desk, working. What?

I sensed someone at the door and looked up expecting one of the office girls asking for a clarification on some point that left her confused while transcribing my dictation. Surprise!

There stood Michael, leaning against the door jamb with his bland, deferential personage.

My gaze betrayed obvious curiosity prompting him to inquire, “Have you ever felt like you might cry? And, there was no reason for you to feel that way?”

Leaning back in my chair and laying down my pen, I answered, truthfully, “Yeah. At mass, at the offering collection and at Holy Communion. Also, when I think of my family and country.”

Unusual as all of that is, that episode began a seventeen year spiritual journey, together.

That first day of our sojourn, Michael explained the “stirrings” of the Holy Spirit, that strange “crying” sensation; how the Spirit lives within each of us, the welling up behind the eyes when He “stirs”. Two and a half hours later, our conversation ended; I was enlightened, overwhelmed.

Before he delved too deeply in disclosure of his “spiritual understandings” to me that day, Michael asked for a blank piece of paper and a pen. Coming behind my desk, he drew a flat, straight line, horizontally, across the paper; then added a graph-like line with many and varied peaks and valleys. At either end he placed a small “x” representing birth and death.

He said, “If this drawing was a graph of your life, the flat line a choice to live with no highlights, no deep valleys, un-emotional, safe, secure, enough of everything to satisfy you; the jagged line, extreme highs and deep lows of a choice to challenge life, take chances, risk everything, have the faith, and, the guts, to challenge life for all it can give, but, knowing full-well that the valleys will be as severe and long lasting as the highs. Which would you choose?”

Without hesitation or compunction, I confessed, “The latter; every time. That’s how I live.”

On my way home that very day, I experienced my first vision. I felt so un-deserving after it happened that I refused for several years to call them “visions”; I referred to them as “images”.

Michael insisted that they were true visions and that I should just accept them as such.

I was intensely humbled by these extra-ordinary occurrences; I was not convinced; not worthy. For seventeen years Michael’s genius and my thoughts discussed, dissected, challenged and blatantly and brutally tested the phenomena which happened to me. In spite of our aggressive efforts to de-bunk the images, in the end, we, together, could not do so. He said that I had between fifty and sixty such happenings; I never counted; his assessment seems correct.

I wrote each occurrence with drawings and gave copies to Michael. He had a special gift which allowed him to interpret their meaning; his discernment was absolutely uncanny.

Two points of import with regard to this follow: 1) Often, I would utter some fact or describe a scene which he would interrupt saying that the issue or words were accurately scriptural; 2) One vision was about an eagle clutching a rattlesnake, climbing high and dropping it onto a rock, head first and killing it; NINE (9) years later, this “vision” came true and revealed its meaning.

With regard to (1) above, I have no “bible-knowledge” to offer anything scriptural; the second item was indecipherable to Michael for nine years; I had forgotten it, but, he remembered.

I harbor no ill-feelings for any skeptic regarding this accuracy; I confess that should someone come to me with this fantastic story, I would not believe them, either. Yet, he and I know the truth of the matter. I am no saint, but, I would fear to lie about such Godly matters. Amen!

Michael! I miss and will always love you! Mon Amie!
 
 
Plus:
 
 
 
 
Day 193
 
 
Hours of hitting practice in the front yard.
Tiger in the field to supervise.
 
 
It’s a Family Affair! I reckon! Sure enough! (Who could forget “Tiger”-cat?)
 Followers of the “Cookie Jar Sweet Memories” saga have oft read my practiced-mantra of Faith! Family! Freedom! “Life” is the continual celebration of that sacred trinity. Family-Love!
 Our collective affinity for four-legged friends brings our pets into the equation---Happily!
 We have always been able to amuse ourselves with “simple” activities, like: the horses, dogs, cats, sheep, chickens, ducks, cattle and one lone turkey named “Tilley” Tiger-cat was special.
 The grey and white tiger-striped feline truly “believed” he was a family member.
 One Saturday afternoon the neighbor drove over to visit on his John Deere tractor; coming into the family room he took the comfortable chair beside the huge fireplace; Tiger sat at his side on the floor intently eyeing the “stranger who had conscripted Tiger’s” chair. Jim ignored him.
 When our guest leaned forward in the chair after about ten minutes, Tiger-cat jumped up behind him as if to say, “Get out of my chair!” Jim relented giving a share and share alike offer.
 When the man left, Tiger eased in to “his” chair, finally satisfied with his “kingdom”, again.
 Our “human” family did everything together, especially---work. All pitched in so we would have plenty of “play-time” later. We swam, rode horses, hiked, ice skated, snow-sledded, took up photography, did target shooting, had a bow and arrows, skied (the girls), fished, hunted wild Morel mushrooms in the spring, took day trips and extended vacations. We bought cattle together, shared in the work, bought real estate together, did the remodeling and sold the houses. We built several very nice homes with input from each member for decorating ideas; collected antiques which we utilized to decorate garnering a “nice” collection in the process, cooked and bar-b-qued and entertained and celebrated at a moments notice---and…we played a lot of ball.
 Sometimes we would go to a baseball diamond to practice; often, we used the front yard. The girls learned to field and hit and understand the nuances of the great game. Tiger-cat always joined in our activities; he even came to the pond on an ice skating foray.
 Tiger lived the life of a cat-“King” and enjoyed longevity. We sure enough enjoyed his company. “What a feline!” Thanks for the memories---our friend…Tiger-cat!
 
Ah! Cookie Jar Sweet “Tiger-cat” Memories!